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Chokher Mato Chinhogulo (A Colloction of Poems)

by Hasan Mahmud Published by Mamun Or Rashid of Adarsha

38 Banglabazar Dhaka 1100 Bangladesh adarshabd@gmail.com

www. adarshabd.wordpress.com First Edition February 2011

Price Tk. 75 :: US $ 3

ISBN 978-984-8875-15-5

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